“I was slow in turning to the Lord. My life in Thee I kept on putting off from one day to the next, but I did not put off the death that daily I was dying in myself. I was in love with the idea of the happy life, but I feared to find it in its true place, and I sought for it by running away from it. I thought that I should be unbearably unhappy…”
(Blessed Augustine, 5th Century Theologian, in “Confessions”)